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15 August アイシテル ~海容~這幾天看完日本テレビ上一季的日劇: アイシテル ~海容~ (中譯: 愛的寬恕),
劇情從一個11歲的少年因殺害了一個7歲的小孩被警方逮捕開始,
雖然到最後真相大白,依舊讓人覺得沉重~
劇裡被害者的母親寫給加害者母親的一封信裡寫到:
其實想想,我們作母親的,是多麼不討好的一個角色, 當我們將事情做好,所有人都認為是理所當然,
但一旦事情發生, 我們就像該下十八層地獄般被責怪.
雖然是智也(加害少年)殺了我的清貴(被害少年),
但妳和我都只是個心碎的母親罷了.
孩子不會一直是孩子,
但當我們回頭再看,只會發現我們也只是個不稱職的母親而已!
看到這段,眼淚停不住的流下來,
是真的, 每天看著奈奈不斷成長,學習越來越強,
自己卻越來越沒自信,
"不知道這孩子以後會變怎樣? 會不會被欺負? 會不會欺負別人? 我到底能教她些什麼?....."
這樣的問題不知在我腦海裡環繞了多少次.
現在的小孩什麼都學,父母越來越早讓小孩學東西好像也成了理所當然,
但我只希望奈奈快樂的長大,卻又怕她沒跟別人一樣早起步而以後壓力太大.
說我杞人憂天也好,想太多也好,
我只希望她健康快樂長大.
有時作父母的擔憂真的是一輩子,
我其實一直覺得我到現在30, 健康沒病痛,也許人生沒什麼成就,
但至少是我自己選擇的人生,
但媽媽到現在還有時會自責說如果她當初能在逼我逼的緊一點.
我會比現在更有成就也說不定.
我愛媽媽,感謝她一輩子愛我們,也從來沒想過埋怨她,
我的人生會走什麼樣的路,一切都是我的選擇,
無論好或不好,都沒有必要去後悔.
我不知道奈奈以後會選擇什麼樣的人生?
但我只能把我知道的人生讓她知道,給她作參考,
她的人生, 依舊是要她自己去搜索和發光的.
其實想想,父母和孩子的牽絆,也只在於從受孕到出生的那十個月,
孩子出生後,別看他小小的身體,
每天已經在努力的自己生存著,
父母能做的,也僅僅把他們順利的帶到這個世界而已!
30 April 也曾年輕過~最近和以前五專時的一個好友再度連上,不禁被帶回時光的漩渦,
自己也曾年輕過~
也有那段有淚有笑及愛的瘋狂的歲月~ 很難忘,也很懷念~ 人逐漸長大, 到最後依然留在你回憶裡的... 有幾人?! 08 April Love Shuffle~正在看TBS剛演完的ラブ シャッフル(Love Shuffle).
四對男女為了尋找真愛,而決定彼此交換伴侶的故事~
如果有人問我: 從哪裡感覺到自己不再年輕了呢?
我想從看電影和日劇的選擇就可以看出來了!
以前那種愛的轟轟烈烈變成現在的交換伴侶,
覺得自己的歐巴桑power逐漸増強中,
想到連自己都不禁打起寒顫~
ラブ シャッフル裡面有句台詞: 人都喜歡戀愛,但如果一直戀愛卻又覺得寂寞!重重的講到心裡~
就拿我自己來說.也是個喜歡戀愛的人呢~
因為如此,喜歡這部日劇~
劇裡,玉木宏飾演的角色的那句台詞,
"我也想要有那個人,在我消失以後,那樣的惦念我,就好像心裡空了一塊一樣,
那就是,曾經活過的唯一証據.到底,有多少人是真正的活過呢?
管它道德不道德,
每個人都有一直戀愛和尋找真愛的權利~ 愛情萬歲~~
 15 March Dear Zachary~Dear Zachary is one of the few documentaries that I ever watched.
Although it's base on a real murder case, it turns out to be the most touching documentary that I came across.
After all, it's not just about hate and a cold blood murder; it is a bout courage, faith, and lots of love~
If you haven't had chance to watch it, give it a try.
You will like what you see~
The Dear Zachary official web site
~Dear Zachary's trailer
25 February 違う~最近大姐奈的口頭禪: 違う (不對,不是這個....)
每次到Youtube,放她自己指了要看的影片,馬上"違う,違う"的叫個不停,
有時我和她爸到後來只好關機收場~
20個月的奈奈越來越有個性,
搞得我們又氣有好玩~
以這樣的程度發展下去,
讓老媽我一想到她以後青春期開始時,忍不住打了冷顫~~
 ~很有殺氣的眼神!!
  11 February What If~Will Smith's "Seven Pounds", it's a story about regret, love, and redemption~
It's a good story, a sad story; it's also a story that makes you rethink about the definition of life.
There's another meaning that talks in the movie, "What If"~
We hear, talk, and think about "what if" everyday.
From should I eat this or that to Should I live or die; we are always wondering "what if" I made other decisions that time, will my life be different?!
Life is like a choice map. When you look carefully, everything we do in life is making choice.
"Did I make a good choice?" we've been asking ourselves the same question over and over.
I used to think about "What if" a lot, wondering if I will have a better life if I made a different choice. But I try not to do that anymore.
Regardless having previous life or after life, THIS is MY life.
Every decision that I made, I don't feel regret.
I want to do the best I can to make my life valuable, for myself, for other people, and for the world that we live in.
I want to love everyone in my life and let them know.
Life is short and fragile, we can only love ourselves more and hope one day...
we can become inspirational for others.
 04 February 5小時~今天從奈奈出生到現在19個月,第一次跟爸爸兩人お留守番~
整整五個小時喔~
本以為回到家後不是屋頂掀起來要不就是爸爸奈奈哭成一團,
沒想到到家一看大姐奈乖乖一個人睡的熟熟,爸爸翹著腿玩電腦~
據老公說,之前他因為有點累,躺在床上休息一下,結果奈奈乖乖的到他旁邊躺下,自己就睡著了~
聽完後我更加確信這小鬼是吃定我了,每次跟我一起睡午覺像鬧革命一樣,不到筋疲力盡不善罷干休~
惡魔奈一碰到最愛的爸爸馬上變成天使~
但想一想這樣也好,
以後如果又要把她丟給老公,老媽我就有最棒的藉口了~~嘿嘿
 Anyway,不管奈奈天使或魔鬼,老公倒也是辛苦了整個上午,
忍不住在老公臉上,深深一個Kiss~~
 My Dear~
ありがとう~~
~Always be Daddy's girl~
 31 January The Women~Just finished movie "The Women", Starting Meg Ryan, Annette Bening, Debra Messing (one of my favorite actresses), and Jada Pinkett Smith.
There's not a single male actor appeared in the movie. It's a movie, which expresses life, marriage, emotion, and friendship for women.
Overall, the movie is so so, it expressed its point of view; however, the whole plot is just not as attractive as it suppose to.
However, what attracts me was the concept of the movie. In the movie, when Bette Midler asked Meg Ryan : What do YOU want? That awakes me!
We, women; caring about our appearence, caring about boyfriend, husband's feelings, doing house chores while taking care of kids, etc.
When do we ever sit down and ask ourselves: What do I want?
Being a Christian my whole life, but forgive me, God; You are not fair~
When women are getting old and losing shapes; the older the popular for men.
When women are trying to use every single methods on the earth to save our youth; men are enjoying being charming and being
When women are getting old, regardless you are ich or not, people will say "you look old".
However, when men are getting old, people will say "you look mature" if you are not rich. if you are rich, guarantee you will be getting as much impressive as you can get,; like "you look charming", "you look powerful", or like "you still look attractive, etc.
What makes me feel sad is, since when, women stop asking themselves: What do I want?
With Nana is growing up everyday, I would love to see her to become an independent woman. Knows what she wants and has the power to have the life she desires.
As a daughter, wife, and mother myself, I want to become a better person, have my own career or business, to love myself more, and I want Nana to feel proud of me.
As for all women in the world: Love ourselves. Because each one of us are so unique. Because we deserve it~~
Like Jada said in the end of the movie: Being a woman is a gift~~
女人,要更加愛自己~~
 22 January Ladies and Gentlemen, the President of the United States~On January 20th, 2009, president Barack Obama became the 44th president of the United States. It's a historical moment for America, and new hope for Americans. May God give him wisdom and strength, leads America moving forward.
President Obama's Inaugural Speech~
17 January ギラギラ～最近正在看由同名漫畫搬上螢幕的日劇"ギラギラ" (中譯:王牌男公關),
描述一個引退十年的No.1男公關(ホスト),因被解雇而再度重回公關界的故事~
日本資深俳優佐々木蔵之介飾演的主人公七瀨公平在劇裡一再強調: ホスト的工作不在於錢賺多賺少,在於能否真正解除客人的煩惱,而真正達到療傷的境界~
劇中雖沒有曲折或令人號泣的誇飾劇情,但卻充滿了最原始卻常被人遺忘的親情和友情,真實的道出男公關不為人知的溫暖一面~
至於對我這個超愛日本男生的老媽來說,看整部戲跟眼睛猛吃冰淇淋沒什麼兩樣(最喜歡看可愛的日本男生
)~劇裡飾演其他配角的每個小男生,都會讓人眼睛閃閃發光呢~(天啊!已經跟おばさん沒什麼兩樣)
 不但看了部好劇,也滿足了我這個不甘寂寞的人妻+人母的妄想世界~~
 回想起第一次到日本在歌舞伎町看到的幾個現實生活中的ホスト,還真的有點Drama的感覺呢~~嘻嘻
 嗯~老媽的妄想世界,持續暴走中......
13 January Marley&MeChristmas上演的"Marley&Me",改編自John Grogan的同名小說"Marley&Me".敘述一隻世界最壞惡犬如何改變一家人的真實記事~
兩年前John的Book tour到Seattle時,Lucky的我不但見了他的面,握了他的手,書讓他簽了名,還秀了Mame的照片給他看.看了照片後他笑著說: He does look like Marley. John平易近人的態度,讓我真的感動不少~
~Marley&Me 的封面
 ~John的簽名 (是簽給Mame的喔!)
 讀了"Marley&Me",心中有許多感受,身為一個Dog owner and Dog lover,書中的笑與淚,字字句句都寫到心坎裡. John在書裡寫到: A dog didn't care if you are rich or poor. Give him your heart, he will give you his. 當Kai 離開我們之後,我感謝主有Mame在身邊,他填滿了我的寂寞,陪我渡過無數眼淚流不完的日子.Mame對我們來說,不只是寵物,是親人.是我最親愛的兒子~
在別人眼裡Mame永遠不是模範狗,愛破壞,永無止境的吃和永遠用不完的Energy,但他在我們心中是最棒的~
因為怕大姐奈吵鬧的關係,一直沒辦法到電影院去看Marley&Me, 小弟前兩天去看了以後,極力推薦,愛狗或養狗的人感同身受,沒養狗的人也會大笑不止.所以大家有機會或時間,可以去捧捧Marley的場喔~~ 不喜歡看電影的人也可以買書來看,是一本值得收藏的作品~
來看看Marley&Me的Trailer吧~
~再來看看我們家的惡犬吧~
08 January Nice to know you~網路實在是個有趣的東西,
以前從沒想過自己會在網上認識朋友~
去年開始寫網誌,
愛閒逛的我逛了不少吸引人的Blog~
讓井底之蛙的我發現了令一片天~~
在閒逛中逛到了愛醬媽的家,
現在6個月的愛醬,
跟大姐奈一樣是個日台混血兒(哈日的老媽總是很愛強調^_^)
但是乖巧可愛的愛醬跟吾家惡魔奈,
實在是天壤之別!!
害老娘心裡嘟嘟念,依舊不解? 一樣都是混,我們家這個怎麼混到變アクマ？
結果看到愛醬爸和愛醬媽的照片一切終於揭曉!!
人家愛醬跟爸媽一樣是走氣質路線的呢!
還有其他網友說愛醬爸媽可去作韓劇男女主角哩~
今年收到愛醬媽盛情傳送的年賀狀,
心中除了感動還是感動~
沒想到網路白癡的我還能在這個無限可能的世界中,
結交了一個彼此談心的好友!
Thank you, 愛醬媽! Thank you, Internet~~
 26 December 可憐的Santa~24 December An early Christmas~今晚收到小弟的Christmas Gift, Martin+Osa 的Sweater~
好感動, An early Christmas for me~~
小弟~
Thank you~~
姐姐愛你~
Merry Christmas to you, too~~
 21 December 有小弟真好~這幾天Seattle雪下不停,
帶著奈奈跟Mame一起散步根本不可能,
還好小弟沒上班時在家幫我看著奈奈,
我才能帶Mame沒有後顧之憂的走了快一個小時,
有小弟在身邊,很多事情都變得容易~
我也變得越來越依賴小弟~
很多人生完小孩之後,都希望媽媽陪在身邊,
其實我也一樣,
但因有小弟在身邊,
媽媽不在身邊的寂寞感,也就沒那麼強烈了~
很多不想跟老公講的事,永遠都可以和小弟分享~
小弟愛奈奈,奈奈也好愛舅舅,
以前以為生了小孩後姐弟倆會不會疏遠,
有了奈奈後兩人感情更親近~
之前一直對生老二有很大的恐懼,
照顧小孩真的很辛苦.
但有小弟在身邊,
深深覺得如果奈奈有個弟弟或妹妹在身邊,
兩人一起扶持成長,一定也是一件很美好的事~
小弟~
姐姐很感激你一直在身邊支持姐姐,
從今以後也要彼此扶持喔~~
19 December Fun, Fun Snow day~~Seattle had a great amount of snow today.
Roads are closed, cars parked on the street, people start playing slide on the hill....
Maybe many people hates snow day, but I was quite enjoying it.
With snow coming down from the sky, everything looks so still and quite. There's nothing can replace that peaceful moment~
Besides, my lovely dear didn't have to go to work because he couldn't even get out of house, four of us (includes Mame) had a nice and wonderful snow day~
Later, took Mame for a long walk, and he had a blast. He had snow all over his body and on his nose, and he just looked absolutely handsome~
"Lab is the kind of dog which is such a match to snow", I remember someone told me this couple years ago. Today, I finally realized why~
Happy snow day!!
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